| how hard i fall, i've forgotten. |


59. No Way OutOpen my eyes. Breathe. Breathebreathebreathe. Yawn. Stretch-you. Roll out of bed. Put on a shirt. Stumble down the hall into the bathroom. You. Pee. Shower. You.59. No Way Out
Stumble back down the hall. Lock the bedroom door- You. Dress. Brush hair.
Brushbrushbrushbrushbr-You. Make lunch. Put it away.
Read the paper- You. Eat a bowl of cereal. You. You. You.
Drive to school. Park. You.
Go to my locker. Go to math. Write. Draw. Doodle. Talk. Talktalktalktalk- You. Get up. Go to locker.
Talktalktalkbabblebabblebabblechittychatc


52. Deep In ThoughtThere have been few constants throughout the past eighteen months- the fact that her presence makes me smile, her laughter is still contagious, and that every moment spent with her is bliss. And this lazy summer afternoon was absolutely no exception. Subconsciously, i reached over to my right and grabbed her hand, still after so long giddy as a result. Our fingers- hers longer and calloused in comparison to my own, soft and fair-skinned- entwined, and i pulled our mass of digits closer to my face, to examine.52. Deep In Thought
It was odd, I thought, how well our fingers laced together despite their vast differences in size, shape, length, color.
| this is what you've done to me, this is why i beg for peace. for you, like golden clarity i flee my past. and i believe. to choose between what's there and what can only be desired- you are the building smoke and i the raging fire. these words: i hope they plague you- burn you, you fucking liar. 'cause with every flame i flicker, you float on even higher. |
| i've never dwelled this long before on anything so trivial. you had me once, you had me twice- and suddenly it's difficult to let you go and break apart, because- the toll on my heavy heart is just too much for one to stand. i'd like to see this romance end finally and then i'll be- first in two years- baby, i'll be free. don't test my logic of you'll lose out. everyone sees the damage done to my doubt. oh, girl- it's so tragic. it's so tragic. it's so tragic. i've got this mind that claims that we can find a better way to be. But time has passed- i shouldn't fear that nothing has changed within this year. I'd ask you how, i'd ask you why you felt the need to make me cry. But the answer i've always known is one that you have always shown. oh, girl. it's all so trivial. |
| i claimed it was the last time i'd ever waste my life begging for change. but i lied, baby i lied to myself. through masked shame, i smile away the doubt- and you never let me falter. with steady hands you propped me up, my breakable facade. and, to hell with you if you think i'm not worth it. to hell with your second guesses; with my second chances. |
MEL.
WE FIND EACHOTHER ON DEVART.
FTW.
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our last stand goes:
hallelujah, love lost
i've got an empty wallet and a record cover
the stage, hot and worn, like an aging lover.
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"Take One Step Towards Me, and I Will Take a Thousand Steps Towards You." Amma Sri Karunamayi
i've been doing it foreverrrrr.
i've just been being ridiculously lazy lately, so i'm trying super hard to catch up.
thankyou, though!
<3
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our last stand goes:
hallelujah, love lost
i've got an empty wallet and a record cover
the stage, hot and worn, like an aging lover.
--
"Take One Step Towards Me, and I Will Take a Thousand Steps Towards You." Amma Sri Karunamayi
TAGGED :3
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-dances-
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our last stand goes:
hallelujah, love lost
i've got an empty wallet and a record cover
the stage, hot and worn, like an aging lover.
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"love does not begin and end the way we seem to think it does. love is a battle, love is a war; love is growing up." - james a. baldwin
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our last stand goes:
hallelujah, love lost
i've got an empty wallet and a record cover
the stage, hot and worn, like an aging lover.
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